“I wish I knew how to quit you.”
Brokeback Mountain
I know I know… Brokeback Mountain?
I liked it. It was a really slow in some parts but it was good. If you can get over two guys kissing and making love there is actually a story behind it. (I won’t ruin it for those of you who haven’t seen it.) :)
But I love this quote… “I wish I knew how to quit you.” I can relate to that quote so much. Do you know how many times I have said, “I wish I knew how to quit you,” but in my own words. I wish I didn’t think about you all the time…I wish I didn’t get excited every time my phone rang hoping it was you…I wish I didn’t dream about you…I wish you didn’t give me butterflies…I wish you could be mean…I wish you were ugly…I wish I didn’t like you.
I wish I knew how to quit you. I wish I could make every thing that has happened go away. I wish I didn’t think about it all the time. I wish I would have listened to myself more. I wish I would have just left. Not your fault… I just got too attached. I have a problem with that…getting attached too soon. I let my emotions do the leading and I let my brain follow (not a good thing). I wish I could stop liking you. I wish I could forgive myself. I wish I could forgive you. I wish I knew how to quit you!
7 comments:
you know what I love about you? (besides a sparkling personality).. that you aren't afraid to show raw emotion..
Is this post about Mike's Hard Lemonade?
Or Corona?
Isn't it hard? I wish it were that easy to "quit him." I've been working on it for 3 years. It'll get easier. Love You.
Kalla,
Here's the bad news...
I don't think you ever really "quit" him or her. I think you learn to love what you loved, but to do it looking backward at what was, rather than forward at what could/should have been. And I think you learn to embrace what you didn't like about him/her...in part because it's reality and in part because it's how you move on.
But I don't think you're ever done with the relationship. It just becomes a part of your journey, a part of your story, and in some ways a part of who you are now.
I got hurt very badly twice before I found Stacy. I and I was lucky to just have the two...but had it not happened twice, I may not have recognized Stacy for what she was. I may still have been chasing the wrong girl because I hadn't been hurt enough by the wrong girl to see the right one when she walked by me in the hallway of my freshman dorm.
I'm done waxing romantic now. Hope it helped, or at least didn't hurt.
Peace,
Justin
ok... you are just weird.
Weird...yes I know I am weird. You didn't have to leave me a comment for me to know that. But being weird is who I am so THANKS!
at the katie reider/over the rhine show the other night, katie did a really old song of hers, 'trusted eyes.' one line from that song hit me hard: 'no piece of me is yours.' it really resonated with me, and i hope it will resonate with you. may what's his be his, and may what's yours be yours.
(and i'd toast to that. :)
you're one of my favorite people, kg.
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