Being pregnant

Now I know why God made women to have babies because men could never handle it.

Imagine having the flu everyday and never being able to do anything about it... it's not so great. I really just have to take one day at a time. All the foods that I once loved I am now unable to eat. Everybody knows that I love macaroni and cheese... I would eat it every day if I could... I am now unable to eat anything with cheese. :( Everyday I crave something different and everyday its hard to eat. There are a few things that I know that I can eat and keep down and there are things that I know I can't eat and keep down. I can't wait till this goes away!

Even though there are days that I am miserable I know that in the end this will all be worth it. My wonderful soon to be husband has been great. There isn't much that he can do for me but sometimes just being there helps a lot.

Me a mommy... Chris a daddy...

I AM PREGNANT!!!

What I thought was a case of the flu turned out to be a little itty bitty thing growing inside of me.

I am about 5 weeks (we think). And let me just tell you this is not the fun part. Althought we are excited (very) the fact that i am nauses all day is not very exciting.

So everything in my life is changing... We are having a baby... we are getting married... we just got a puppy... You know it all sounds so crazy but I wouldn't trade it for anything. Each day it gets more and more real though I don't think it will ever be real until the baby comes.

I am starting to learn that things (planned or unplanned) happen for a reason.

So that is all the news I have. :) :)

Goodbye...

Unless you’ve ever lost someone then you know what it feels like, but this is ten times worse. Today my three younger brothers and sisters were taken from my family.

Almost two and half years ago my parents became foster parents to three younger kids who needed a loving home for them to grow up in. Through the two and half years my family has gone through a lot with them. When they were brought to our home the intent was to adopt them. They had been taken from there moms several times. They are other family members around but the one who wanted them failed her home study so that left no one. Two and half years later and a million court dates all we were waiting for was for them to terminate the mother’s rights.

But yesterday was a very different story. My parents had a meeting with all the social workers (you have no idea how many people it takes) and the kid’s social worker said that they were being taken from the home and going to live with their Grandpa. They told my parents that even if the mothers rights were going to be terminate that they were not going to let my parents adopt these kids.

I felt like the county said that my parents weren’t great parents and I STRONGLY disagree. My parents have done everything for those kids. I really don’t know much of the details but I do know that one of the things that they said were the kids were dirty and they complained about there hair. I can tell you that those little kids have never been dirty. Yes they are kids and they get dirty but DIRTY? And let’s talk about their hair. The mom would not give permission to cute their hair EVER. The county finally set up appointments to get there hair cuts. So they can’t even blame my parents on there hair.

There are a lot of people I am mad at because of this situation. But most of all I am extremely mad at God. I don’t get why He would bring three beautiful children into our lives, let us fall in love with them and then boom… GONE! It doesn’t make sense.

PLEASE PLEASE don’t pretend like you understand when you don’t. I know how much I am hurting right now but I can’t even begin to understand how my mom and dad are feeling. It be easier if they just died… and I know that sounds bad, but if they died I wouldn’t have to worry about them.

If you want to do anything please pray for my family as we grieve losing three little kids.