No one ever tells you

No one ever tells you how difficult it is for you when your baby is sick.

Tonight Caidan vomited for the first time and THANK YOU GOD... Chris was home. Caidan was sleeping and Chris heard him gasping for air when he ran in there and he had vomited everywhere... and in about two hours he has vomited five times. As his mom I am freaking out! I don't know how to make my baby better. I can't call the doctor because it is in the middle of the night so I basicly have to watch him in pain and it is extremely sad. These are the things that people don't tell you when you have kids. Chris said tonight, "Now I know why everyone says you freak out with your first kid."

Its almost three in the morning and I have gotten maybe an hour of sleep. I can't fall asleep because everytime I do Caidan starts getting sick again. Luckily (knock on wood) its been an hour since he last threw up. He really has nothing left in him to throw up. (I spoke to soon)

For me as a mom I feel like I have done something wrong. I think of all the things that I have done that could have made him sick. As a parent you feel guilty!

It doesn't even matter how tired I am I would do this every night if he was sick... (God please don't let him be sick every night!)