One of the most AMAZING nights of my life

KELLY CLARKSON!
I love Kelly Clarkson and last night I got to see her in concert. It was AMAZING! I admire her so much as a person. She went from waiting table three years ago to making music. She is amazing. Her voice is AMAZING!
Lets just say it was an AMAZING night.

There was six of us who went and lets say we got the hook up. One of the guys in the band and also the musical director for the tour is a friend of Adam and Casey's. He used to travel with David Ruis and someone else and now he travels with Kelly and is working on her new CD. We got a tour of the stage before the show started and we got to tour the bands bus (which is very different from Kelly's) and we got to meet the band. We didn't get to meet Kelly which was sad but the night was so AMAZING that I didn't even really care. I was just so excited to be at the concert. And we got amazing seats! Not front row but lets say the seats that we had cost $75.

I was sad the night was over but something that I will never forget!

This great LOVE

Do you ever feel like you have to pray more? Or read your bible more? Or go to church more? Because you think God is keeping a list of all our names with check marks by them of all the things we’ve done wrong and in order to clear all the check marks you have next to your name (there would be a lot next to mine) you have to do “more.” Isn’t that one of the biggest lies we’ve ever heard?

On Thursday nights there’s a bunch of girls that go to this bible study downtown called Metro (check it out). The speakers name is Jeff Magnum. Wonderful speaker (if you get a chance check out the podcast!) He pastors a church in Austin, Texas and every Thursday night for the past 6 weeks has been driving two hours each way to speak to a group of 20-30 year olds.

Last night he spoke on redemption. But that’s not what stuck out to me. I know that I’ve talked about God’s love and it being so big and sometimes misunderstood. Jeff has an 8 month old little daughter. He said the most frustrating thing is that she doesn’t know how much her daddy loves her. He said he sits there every day and tells her a million times that he loves her and she just smiles or laughs at him. Do you ever think we do that with God, smile and laugh at him when he tells us he loves us?

The three words that God tells us every single day probably over and over again are I LOVE YOU and the mean nothing to us. We brush those words off like they mean nothing to us because we don’t understand the depth of what they really mean. I know that God loves me and I can tell you a million times but I don’t understand the depth of how God really loves me. It almost brings me to tears; no it does because I can’t grasp that love.

I just hope one day I will be able to grasp a little of that love!

I’m not sure I understand what church is for.

Churches down in Houston are very different from churches in Cincinnati. When I first started to go to church down here I thought they “did” church the wrong way. Worship is just mediocre, talks are taught right from the bible and not life related (if that makes sense… and not saying that is wrong at all), production is not a big quality here, church is so long and churches are also small here.

Now none of that is wrong. But I’ve realized I don’t know what church is for.

I know that all churches are different and every church is going to do things very different from every other church but shouldn’t church have one main focus… to bring people to Christ? VCC is a very outward focused church. It’s all about serving the poor and reaching out to those in need. In Houston most of the churches that I have attended are community focused. Being in community is a key factor to living a life with Christ.

I go to a Vineyard church which is a non-denominational church. But how is that any different from a denominational church? Lutheran’s, Baptists, and whoever else have rules or regulations (I guess you could call them that) that they have to follow as a church. If you are a Vineyard Church don’t you also follow rules and regulations set by the Vineyard Association?

I guess I just don’t understand why people make a big deal out of going to church. I’ve never gone to church every week and been blown away every week…maybe every once in a while but as far as every week… no. I can sit and have a conversation with God and get more out of that than going and listening to some one speak to me for 30-40 minutes. I’m not saying that you don’t need to go to church and that I think it’s a waste of time because I think that its part of being in a relationship with Christ, but I don’t know if just going to church to say I’ve gone is the right thing either.

It was a lot easier when I was a kid. I just followed my mom and dad but now that I am all by myself I’m just trying to figure out where I fit in and what fits me.

Falling in love

Okay I know it's been a while since I wrote something so I thought I would do so since every one seems to want to hear about something. So a lot of people have probably been wondering what's up with Chris... I thought you guys broke up? We did and then we got back together (and are together).

I first met Chris last Thanksgiving when I went to visit my grandparents. One night while we were there my aunt wanted to go bowling and hang out with us and some of her friends... Chris happened to be one of them. We met at dinner first and then went out bowling. Him and one of his then left real suddenly because my aunt and him got in an arguement. He then came back and hung out for a while. That was all. I thought he was cute but that was all. I lived in Cincy he lived in Plano.
I knew that Chris was going to be in my Aunts wedding and asked if I could walk down the aisle with him. She said sure. Little did I know that he also wanted to walk down the aisle with me... :) I was excited to see him. He was funny... and cute... and very sweet! We had fun at the wedding a little flirting... okay a lot mostly from him... :) :) :). That weekend was fun and I left not thinking anything would come from it... maybe a new friend? Little did I know that I would fall in love. We chatted that night I got here and the next day and the next day and the next day and every day since. Two weeks into it I got a little scared. I didn't realize how we would be able to have a relationship that was so far away. It broke my heart to break up with him and I know that it break his even more. He sent me a letter that showed me just how much he loved me. Here is a little of it...

Maybe one day we will meet again and things will be different that time. If we were really meant to be, we will be. Maybe we both still have some growing to do. If God wants us to be together he will find a way to make it happen. As hard as it is for me, I am going to let you go without a fight. Only because I know in my heart you will come back to me with open arms. I tried so hard not to cry, but now I am. It hurts so bad to say goodbye to someone I love so much, but I guess I don't have much choice. I will love you forever, nothing will change that. I hope you find what you are looking for. You deserve all the glories and riches in the world. Good luck in everything you do, and know that I love you and I am behind you 100% in everything you do. Don't forget to smile every day, because everyone deserves to see how beautiful you and your smile are.

I cried and I cry every time I read that. I didn't talk to him for maybe a day and it killed me. At that time I was in Colorado and unable to use my cell phone... good thing? NO! I needed to talk to anyone and I couldn't. It was the worst thing ever. When I was in a place with reception I ended up calling him and we've never stopped. At first it was just as friends... yeah you know how that works. And then I went and visited him and everything changed. I feel in love... :) So thats the story. Thats why I'm always so happy!

I can't take anymore

I’m just frustrated today.

It’s one of those days that no matter what happens everything just seems to frustrate me. I can be having a nice conversation and then the next minute something sets me off and your pissed... Yeah that’s my day today. :(

Sorry if I was grumpy to you. It didn't have anything to do with you.

I want to bake or cook... yeah it's like 1AM here and I'm in bed and I want to cook. I am just stressed out and annoyed. I really just want to go to bed so I can end this day but every time I lay down I think about too much stuff. And honestly I would rather not think at this moment. I would love to fall in a deep sleep and dream about good things. I would also like my cell phone to stop breaking. In less than one month I will have gone through three cell phones... I feel like Steve Fuller... If you are ever thinking about buying a razor... DON'T! This is the second time that it refuses to charge. (I swear I don't do anything too it!!!) And it's not the battery. Thats what the guy tried to tell me over the phone but I got kind of frustrated so I think he finally understood that this was a major issue and that I just needed a new one. I'm hungry (I just realized that) but I am too lazy at this moment to get out of bed and get me something to eat. I need some good Dane Cook. I need to just laugh in this moment. Maybe I will go do that... I will let you know if it helped!

I'm sorry!

I have a lot of apologizing to be done but I'm sorry I have kept you all out of the loop. It's been a weird last three weeks. I don't have internet at the house I am staying out so I can't just blog at anytime at this moment.

I've moved again and then in about a week or so I will move again and then who knows when I will move again. My world is very crazy at the moment.

I am sorry to all those who have tried to call and I don't answer... I am sorry to those who I haven't called and should... I am sorry to some other people that I have made mad a couple weeks ago... in general I am just sorry! I hope you can forgive me.

Houston is just going... I don't love it but I don't hate it. I love my job but hate the city. No offense to anyone who lives in Houston or is going to be... but the city SUCKS! :)

On another note... I've gotten to hang out with some cool girls and just have fun.

Here are some pictures of my new family at the moment. :)








Here's me and the girls... we were on the way to the movies!








Meet Shilo...













....and meet Rio.








and this is Nicco (I bet he won't like this picture up... but that's what happens when your younger sister gets a hold of the camera! :))








And I have to put a picture of Chris! :) :) :) :) :) :)

What a week...

This week has been amazing. I don't have time to write about it at the moment but just keep checking I will update soon! ;)

F***** UP

Here’s where I am at...



Life is FUCKED UP!!!
(I’m sorry there is no other word to describe how I feel in this moment!)

I hate that I am twenty and more mature than 28,29, and 30 year olds. Why do I always have to be the big person? I am the one who is supposed to be young and enjoy life… not dealing with everyone’s shit. I can fix everyone’s problems.

Do you ever feel like some of the gifts you have been given are curses?

Mood: Frustrated, scared, nervous, hungry (because I am all of those things and I can’t eat when I am all of those things), mad, angry, sad, but I have a little bit of excitement (I think that is the only thing that is keeping me going).

Being stretched

I know I have written a post about this before but some how it means something else to me… those Fray’s.















Some times the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

It seems like I have been doing a lot of hard things lately but I know they are right. This doesn’t make it easier but makes it easier to know that there is a purpose to what I am doing. I am about to do something that will either hurt some people I love or help people I love and I am not quite sure.

I knew that coming down here was going to stretch me in ways that I never thought. I have been down here…4 weeks?... and I’ve been stretched enough. But for some reason I don’t think it’s over. There is a lot more stretching that has to happen unfortunately. (that’s either a good thing or a bad thing… I’d like to think that it’s a good thing!)

Just if you remember in your day to keep me in your prayers!
Thanks! :)

Boys and... me

Disclaimer: I am not saying any of this because I think I am better than anyone else. Because God knows I’m not. Just an observation and conversations with people.

Guys seem to be attracted to me. What I mean by that is the minute a guy meets me they’re automatically attracted to me. (I’m serious… I haven’t met one guy who hasn’t liked me at one time… even if it was for a brief minute or a thought...unless they are married…but I’ve never asked a married man because well they are married.) I can be completely mean to a guy and he falls for me. I can be so sweet (too much) and he falls for me. I can look the worst that I’ve ever looked and he falls for me. I can look the best I’ve ever looked and he falls for me. It doesn’t matter what I do... GUYS FALL FOR ME!

I don’t know what I do to make guys fall for me either. I really don’t want all these guys falling for me. The thing is once a guy falls for you and you are nice to them they think you’re great and keep talking to you and blah blah blah. I just don’t have the heart to tell them that they are sweet but I just don’t like them like that.

I just don’t know what to do… I know I'm cute but I can't help that. God made me this way. :)

Doing the stuff

Tonight and every night this week I get the chance to sing with Adam at a conference that he is leading worship at called Doing the Stuff… which is like SOS but on a much smaller scale (because they don’t have a Kande Wilson! ;))

But the speaker for the conference is the author of the book Buck Naked Faith (I don't remember his name...sorry). Great book… I recommend it. He didn’t talk about the book at all. He actually talked about identities and what we find our identities in. This is something I am struggling with a lot.

I know who I am, but I also don’t know who I am. (That probably makes no sense to any one.) I let things define me, my friends, my job, the things I have, the things I don’t have, my money, my house, my car, and my family. Yeah I know the answer… I should just let God tell me who I am (that’s the Jesus answer). BUT THAT’S HARD!

Last week while we were at the boot camp I met this really cool dude (no not like that!) who told me some thing that is very obvious but something that was very profound to me at that moment, “God is not tangible.” Sometimes don’t you just need God to be tangible? I do. I need God right here in my face telling me everything. Can you imagine what you would or wouldn’t do if God was really in our face? Yes, I know he is here but I am talking about him actually being here like a human.

Sometimes I think… or maybe just me… we forget that God is here. We go on with our lives, feeding the kids, doing our jobs, going shopping, cleaning the house or doing the laundry that we forget that God is every where. Maybe this is just an obvious statement and that's okay but right now in this moment it’s a big statement for me. If God was here I wouldn’t feel like I need to find me… I would find myself in Him. So why can't I do that?

A lot of people define themselves by their relationships. If you’re married then you have found your identity in your life with your husband/wife. If you’re dating someone you have found your identity with your boyfriend/girlfriend. (I’m not saying that all those people have found there identity and have a terrific life… I think they struggle with identities too. I just think it is easier for them to feel like they have an identity. Please correct me if I’m wrong.)

I met a couple who are nineteen and are pretty serious about their relationship. I am twenty and I am struggling to find who I AM and how do you do it when you are dating someone. I know finding our identities is different for everyone but being in a relationship (a serious one) I think would really hurt me (now don’t get me wrong I would love to be in a relationship) but there is a reason I am single, 20 and just moved across country.

There is a lot that I need to figure out about me and life and I guess God new that I wouldn’t be able to do that back in Cincinnati so he moved me all the way down here where I am struggling because nothing is familiar to me, I have to make friends… they just don’t fall in my lap… I have to learn a new job with new people (some are old but it’s still different), and I have to learn new roads that are very confusing to me. (I’ve gotten lost A LOT… but I just laugh at myself because in a way I do it on purpose. :))

Finding out who you are can be scary if you don’t like change. Umm… hello… ME! But I’ve come too far to back down now… even though sometimes it would be so great to just go home and see everyone!

I’m in this till the end!

Personal trainer

So yesterday I joined the gym here. That is a good thing, but I am also very sore too. When you join one of the things that they do is give you a session with a personal trainer (it’s just to get you to sign up with them) but this morning Melody and I went, and let me just say…PAINFUL! Don’t get me wrong I enjoyed every single minute of it, but my body hurts so much. I can’t walk up the stairs. (I’m not complaining either! And if you think I am then stop reading)

We as humans give up way too easy and don’t push ourselves enough. Why is it that a complete stranger causes me to push myself to what seems impossible to me but I can’t push myself to half that?

It’s the same with life. I think God pushes us to what seems impossible to us. It’s like a trainer knows how much weight we can lift and how much to push us…God knows how much we can handle and he will never give us more. We have the right to tell our trainer I can’t do anymore and the thought is always in your mind when your sitting there sweating and the trainer is saying, “Come on ten more.” You don’t think you can do it. But he believes in you and knows that this is good for you. Same with God, we can tell him and have probably told him several of times I can’t do it anymore, but he’s right there with us telling us we can and pushing us more because he knows that whatever it is it’s a good thing.

And after it’s over it’s probably very painful, but eventually that pain will disappear and you will feel better about yourself. We don’t like to cause ourselves pain and we will avoid anything just to not feel that pain but sometimes we need that pain.

To be healthy you have to be disciplined. You have to eat healthy and work out. To be spiritually healthy you have to be disciplined. You have to have a relationship with God. (I was going to name all the things you should do but I think each person has a relationship with God that is different.) Working out hurts… having a relationship with God can hurt too.

Physically I am ready to be disciplined…
Spiritually I am ready to be disciplined…
God help me!

My trip to Colorado

My trip to Colorado was long, but good. I met some really cool people that will always have a place in my heart.

The first half of the trip (Monday-Thursday) was in Fort Collins where we got ready to record a live CD. We set-up, rehearsed, rehearsed some more, ate a lot, slept a little, met a lot of cool people, laughed a lot and recorded a night of worship.

The second half of the trip (Fruday-Tuesday) was in Estes Park. The first day of the trip was very hard for me even the second day because I had to disconnect from the world. Estes is a beautiful place that is surrounded by mountains. I’ve heard how amazing the park was but was really unaware of how beautiful it was.

But here are some pictures from my trip.

Meet Calum Rees... he was the drummer from the recording and he is from England. He is a funny man.

Casey refused to take a normal picture... so this is what he gets! :)

This is Adam... he didn't know I was taking the picture.

Meet Sherri... she is an amazing woman! John... he doesn't really look like this!

Robbie fell a sleep on the floor at the camp while we were transfering fills... :)

This is George Kazaklis... he plays some mean keyboard stuff that he does.

I have a lot more pictures but they wouldn't go up so I will try to put them for everyone to see.

My Confession

I don’t know who I am.
I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know what drives me.

I don’t feel loved.
I know that there are a million people that love and care for me, but what I mean by love is to feel that love. It’s weird because I can say that I am loved by God I know that so much, but my heart still longs for more… what? I don’t know. I am still searching.

I don’t feel beautiful.
Before you say anything… I know that I am beautiful. But have you ever looked in the mirror and thought, “WOW! I am beautiful!”? I do it all the time. But the minute some one tells me I am beautiful I deny it. I think this goes a long with the loved thing. I know the times in my life when I have felt loved I feel like the most beautiful woman in the world and when I feel not loved... I feel ugly.

I feel alone.
I had an amazing thing that I had to let go… now I’m alone and sad.

I think in this very moment I love God so much, but am very mad at him.
I love God because he has directed my life, but at the same time I am so mad at him. I don’t know why he does the things he does. I couldn’t even begin to explain God to you, but sometimes you just have to do what he is telling you… even when it really really sucks!

I don’t know if it’s a curse or a gift, but I fall way too easy for guys.
I have this problem… and I really do think it’s a problem… I fall for the guys who I think are attractive and give me the attention that I need. I normally fall really hard, but somewhere in that process I see who they are… even if they don’t show me that side of them. I see who they are to become and what God wants to do with them.

I want a drink in this moment.
In this very moment a beer would be GREAT. Maybe I could get some sleep…?

I want to smoke.
I don’t smoke, but every time I see someone smoking or smell it I want one. That’s it really… no significant reason.

If I didn’t have a concise and God wasn’t in my life I would be out sleeping around with guys and possibly pregnant at this moment.
I’ve tasted it… and when you’ve had it it’s really hard to go with out it. I’m struggling.

I don’t deserve you. I didn’t deserve you.
I can’t apologize enough for what I’ve done. But you have taught me that I deserve the best. I don’t deserve to be tossed around. I deserve to be placed on a pedestal. Thank you for teaching me about me. Thank you for loving me and thank you for being so wonderful. I didn’t deserve you. I don’t deserve you.

It’s hard

I’m not going to lie… I am having a really hard time. The first week I was really impressed with myself… I didn’t get homesick and I didn’t have a melt down. I was doing well! Not so much for the second week.

Tonight started the Worship Leaders Boot Camp. Which is ninety some teenagers and young adults coming together to be equipped with the right tools on how to lead worship and just worship God. Sound exciting… yes?... Not for me! Today is my melt down… today was my melt down! I had been going strong for so long and today I just couldn’t take it.

Like I have said probably a million times… I don’t like people. It’s probably a really bad thing that I have taught myself, but I just don’t like BIG crowds (especially 100 people I don’t know) and I just don’t like to meet people.

Today I was put in charge of registration for the event. YES… I love to do those types of things but not so good for a girl who was on the edge of exploding…though I didn’t know it… I quickly became aware of it. I new my mood was changing. You know how you can just feel when your mood changes? I just wanted to escape… I wanted something that was familiar to me. I wanted my mom, I wanted my sisters, I wanted Brooke, I wanted my babies… and the worst part I couldn’t have any of them because there is ZERO cell phone coverage up here and they are too many miles a way from me. I needed them so bad. I just kept telling myself what all of them would have told me a million times, “I’m sorry. You’ll be okay.” Now those might be five easy words to say, but let me tell you something they mean a lot when I’m having a melt down.

These two weeks I’ve been through a lot. I’ve moved out of my wonderful house. I met an amazing guy. I’ve moved to a big ass city. I have a new room. I have a new life. I’ve met more people than I would have liked to have met. I’ve gone to Colorado. I’m in Colorado meeting more people that I would rather not meet (not because I don’t want to, but I am really sick of meeting people). I have been to a different climate that is really starting to bother me. I still have four days in a place where I would rather not be. The list could go on and on.

I’m really sick of people telling me what to do and what not to do. I’m not little. I’m an adult now… I know really hard to believe. But I need to make my own mistakes. I can’t learn from you trying to correct your mistakes with me. I want to make my own mistakes!

I’ve learned I don’t know who I am. Have you ever been somewhere that you’ve let define you? For so long I let the Vineyard define me. That’s who I was. I was the one everyone wanted to help with things… I was that “girl”. Now I am in a different city, with people who don’t know me, in a job that I really don’t know about and I don’t know what defines ME! Who am I? What do I do? What drives me?

This is a really big stretching point for me. I want someone to reach out to me… I want someone who will do things with me, but I don’t want to look for that person. I just want them to drop in my lap. And I have a feeling that just ain’t going to happen. I have a feeling that it is going to take everything I have to meet people.
It’s taking everything I have to stay. I really don’t want to stay. I want to go home. I want to see my family and friends. And I just don’t want to give up. Who ever said following God was easy!

A little bit of this a little bit of that

So far I am doing great. I actually really enjoy Houston...it's hot and I love it.
I have though become homesick. I miss everything that is familiar to me. You know what I really miss the most (sorry everyone)... I miss SKYLINE! I miss two cheese coneys, no onions no mustard and a medium sweet ice tea in a to go cup please! (that what I always order and I always say it like that! I'm a dork I know...)

So I have found a new hobby...tanning. I have always wanted to go tanning and since I live in Houston and every one is dark I thought I would join a tanning place. The only problem is you get burned when you tan... haha! I am tan (I would show you but only a few people can see it ;)), but I am also very red! and let me tell you I am red! And being sunburned also makes you itchy... AHH!

I am currently in Colorado at the moment. We are recording a live album at Fort Collins Vineyard... opps maybe I wasn't supposed to tell... oh well! We then go to Estes park Friday to join up with all the people for the bootcamp. That shall be fun! I will take pictures when I get there... but here are some just because.
















This is me while in the car driving somewhere... i get bored so I started taking pictures of myself. :)
















This is Robbie, Scott and I on our way to Fort Collins.
















This has the mountains in the background... Its hard to see them.

The weekend of fun

Well the weekend was great here are some pictures from the weekend.















This is Penis (yes I said Penis... ask me about it some time;)) and me. :) :) :)
















This is my Aunt (who got married obviously) and me right before the wedding.
















This is my little brother and he is so cute I just had to put it up!
















This is all of us in the car on the way :). A six hour drive turned into an eight hour drive.

Wedding, family, and drama and some other things. That was my weekend.

So much

There is so much to say... so much to do... too many pictures to post... a lot of sleep to be had... not enough time.

There is a lot I want to update every one on, but I have been very busy these last few days. I will update soon!

Sometimes life just gives you little suprises and you don't know why.

Life goes on

I should be sleeping at this moment, its 3:16am. But as I expected I can’t sleep. I’m sad. I just don’t want to say goodbye. If I could be a heartless bitch I probably would have gotten my stuff together at this very moment and left with out saying goodbye. And I have seriously thought about it. It’s not the leaving part that sucks (okay it is) but the saying goodbye sucks.

The thing is, I will say bye to everyone in the morning and I will then drive 500 million miles (I am exaggerating) probably more like 350 miles to Illinois and go to my Aunts wedding. It will probably take me all day to calm myself down blah blah blah, but everyone else will go on…life will go on. People will go to work, kids will be fed, things will happen. LIFE GOES ON! (For you all) Your life stays the same but mine changes dramatically! And that’s okay… it’s just really sad for me.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I love you all

I leave in two days and I am in complete denial. I’ve sent all my stuff and I still don’t believe I am going to do this. I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of waiting…I’m just ready to do this thing. I’ve pushed and shoved enough. Time is coming and all I can do is embrace it.

I can’t explain to anyone how much I love all these people.



Two, you wanna fight? (as I laugh and back away...:)) You are a great guy.

Aaron, just remember to look for things and not ask someone where it is to quickly. ;) Thanks for letting me love your kids and wife. Thanks for letting me help with Dvine.



Mattaline! You are an amazing person who has been gifted with an amazing talent, don't forget who you are. I am going to miss you a lot, but I have a feeling you will be visiting very shortly! :)

PICNIC!!! Thanks for hanging out with me. ;) I'll try to find some one to hang out with all the time in Houston, but I doubt they will be as cool as you. :)

Steve, where do I start with you? Bag em up! :-)
There's a lot that I can say about you, but I am just going to stick with thanks for being a great friend and teaching me more than you know.

I love these two boys more than anyone will ever understand! And I am going to miss them so much! They make me laugh, the make me smile, they make me cry...they just make me happy!!!!






























Brooke, I LOVE YOU! I want you to know that I am going to miss you so much!!!!!!!! You are an amazing friend, you are an amzing mom. You have taught me so much. I don't think there is ever anything that I could do to ever repay you for everything you've done and given me. Thank you so much for letting me love yours boys. Thanks for being there when I needed someone.


All of these people have taught me so much and they've put up with me! I'm weird I know! So thanks to all of you for putting up with me and loving me! I love you all and am going to miss you!!!!